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Bruised but victorious!
How often do you have an opportunity to face one of your core issues with one simple action? Me neither but I did have that chance recently.
Due to some health issues, I have sought the help of a nutritionist and one of the aspects of learning more about what my body actually needs food-wise is that I have to test my blood sugar. Now for most folks the prospect of having to prick their finger (actually, I just hit a button and the spring loaded device pokes the lancet into my finger)is no big deal. For me, it stressed me out to the point of tears because of what that one simple action represented.
I've always been the type to let others do the stuff I didn't want to deal with. Even as a kid I would ask my dad to read the game instructions and then tell me how to play it. I haven't wanted to have to do the foundation work, the interpreting, the creating. But this blood sugar thing was something I would have to do myself. My husband was willing to encourage me, cheer me on, but not hit the button on the lancet device. I sat at the table for 20 minutes, yes, 20 minutes, before I could hit the button. It hurt for a few minutes and it left a bruise at each spot I poked (3 for each meal) but I did it! For me it represented a passing of the torch: my willingness to take full responsibility for what I do and what I create in my life; no longer relying on other's ideas of what is the right way to do things, no longer seeing the world through other people's eyes but through my own. Yikes!
I'm still settling in to my new perspective. The fact that I FINALLY did press that button is evidence that I can do anything. I sort of knew that but now I really know it. That idea is having interesting effects on my business. I feel like I'm riding the wave of new possibilities!
What fear are you ready to face, either because you want to or because you have to?